I just want to say that the stigma associated with mental illnesses is really fucked up (um, duh) and that I have personally experienced it a lot this semester and it’s making me angry.
I have had problems with depression and anxiety since I was 12 years old. I’ve been on medication since I was 15 years old. And I’ve gone to therapy on and off probably for a total of 3 or 4 years. On top of that, I struggled with an eating disorder for several years during junior high an high school. Basically, I am no stranger to mental disorders.
This semester has been really difficult for me. I’ve been down a lot, and I’ve been incredibly fatigued (a common symptom of depression). What’s pissing me off is that as someone with a mental disorder, I am simply supposed to “get it together” or “make it work” because this is something I am supposed to be able to control; but someone who has, say, a learning disability, or ADD, gets special services and more time to complete school work.
THAT’S FUCKED UP.
I can’t control this any more than someone with diabetes can control their blood sugar through sheer will power. And yet sonewhow, even though I have a medical condition that can easily affect my performance both in school and at work, SOMEHOW, it’s all on me.
I’m so tired, and so tired of this being a problem, and I’m at a loss.